"it's the friends you can call up at 4am that matter" - marlene dietrich

or its the ones you can IM at one in the morning and cry to about how terrible you feel all the time.

i love my best friend so much right now.

if youre reading this, i just wanted you to know.

i love you and im so grateful that i have you as my friend.

i don't know who else i could have talked to about this.

but you're perfect.

and i love you, andi.

thanks.

nothing's really been going on.
we're on spring break.
and i'm hating every second of it.
all my friends are gone.
and every time i try to make plans with the boy, they get shut down.
and i think he's getting mad.
i know i am.
and my cell phone is broken.
the battery won't charge.
and it turns off when im on the phone.
i threw it across the room yesterday.
which probably didn't help.
but it made me feel a little better.
i want my friends to come home.
and i want to see my boy.
and i don't want to do my homework.
and i REALLY dont want to work tonight.
to be perfectly honest
i just want my boy.
and my andi.
and i cant have either.
so im sad.
this
sucks.
by the way.
happy birthday to my daddy.
and to my sister.

current mood: depressed

call backs? are you serious?
cjferuinvherjinvferugfwaf.
i want to know which part i got.
NOW.
also, i don't really want bella.
i want etta. or clara.
im much too self conscious to play a belly dancer.

i guess i should just take what i can get.

but still...

home from camp.
i rode for the first time in forever.
marea was silly.
she decided she wanted to canter.
but i didn't want her to.
but she did anyways.
because she's silly. 
i love that pony.
and i missed her.
and eileen says 
her owner wants her to buy her.
which would be awesome.
because then marea 
would be at camp 
all the time.
but eileens kind of blackmailing me
again.
saying she wont keep her
if nobody will come to ride her.
she honestly refuses to understand
that i have a job.
and a life.
and i come to camp as often as i can
which, unfortunately,
is not a lot.

okee, im going now. byeee

i feel icky. im not sure why.
i want that dumb boy to come home from work.



winter ball is this weekend. and i bought shoes. that i love love LOVE.

current mood: icky

eileen was at our house yesterday. and it got me to thinking about

home from annas show.
cute stuff.

trying to figure out what to wear tomorrow.

what am i supposed to wear?

phwoar.

i feel guilty about not coming on here. 
i'm afraid i've finally given way to the evils of myspace...haha. 
my mother has a myspace too.
she thinks shes cool.
i love her.
i have an english exam today.
part two of my ELA regents.
good fun.
except not.
i was late for part one yesterday.
because my busdriver is a bitch.
and she made me cry a little bit.
which was embarrassing.
i'm going to sheas this weekend.
with the boy.
'twill be fun.
good fun.
i have a physics exam tomorrow.
i won't study for it.
and an ap us exam.
i probably wont study for it.
even though i should...
shit, i'm screwed.
ohhh livejournal.
how i've missed you.